My heart is broken.  My baby girl Krystal just informed us that she wants a divorce.  YUK!  Last year she told us that you no longer goes to church.  These a actions that hurt my heart.  I am afraid of what can happen when you ignore covenants made in the church.  The divorce is hard, Gary and I were both concerned about it in the first place.  Kerri was too.  However, we have some absolutely darling grand children from this union.  SO we will have to see where this takes Krystal.  She said in North Carolina couples have to be separated for one year before they can file for divorce.  So there is still time. 

Bailee is now 6 and I wonder if Krystal will have her baptized when she is 8.  

Garrett is on dialysis.  He has kidney disease.  This has been a long week already.  He woke up with a swollen arm and hand yesterday so off to the emergency room.  Turns out he just needed to full 4 hour session to get the toxins out of his  body.  This morning he felt soooo much better.  Plus Gary gave  him a blessing.  Today he wanted to drive himself to dialysis.  Mostly I take him.  

Desire.  I don't usually read my Patriarchal Blessings.  My feelings were hurt when I received it many years ago.  But the last time I read it, I noticed a reoccurring word, DESIRE.  hmm, that must mean something.  I never thought my blessing said much in the past.  In Sunday School class I was reminded of it again.  So I read it again.  YUP!  it is very helpful after all.  I could of been progressing instead of sitting stagnate all these years if I would have only given it a chance.  I find that my desire to do, want, go, learn, etc. fuels me.  So when the Bishop mentioned he sometimes prays for help with his desire to do what he doesn't want to do, a great big bell sounded in my headed.  Ah Hah.  Someone else understands.  My blessing really is for me if I would just embrace it.

My birth mother Lucy Alejo Moreno passed away three years ago.  I went to the Phoenix Temple to do her baptizm and my great grandmothers also,  Now I need to do the iniatories and then the endowments. Lilian, my oldest granddaughter graduates from high school in May.  Kimberly lives  in Logan Utah.  She made an appointment for us to do this work in the Logan Temple while we are there.  This is another sadness about Krystal...she will not be attending the Temple...I don't want her to be without the protection of her covenants.  

My health.  Last year when I went for my yearly visit to my primary care doctor my sugar was so high that I had enter into the Diabetes 2 Zone.  She wanted me to take meds for it.   I didn't want to do that so I asked what other options did I have.  She said I could reverse it but it would take work.  I op[ted for that choice. My carb intake could only be 40mg a day and NO sugar.  She also said the blood work indicated my liver was suffering.  So I needed to eat in way that I could cleanse it.  Good news!  This year's check up was much better.  My A1C blood test was 5.5  no more diabetes, my liver was normal and I lost 25 lbs. So I am on the right path.  I still have maintain but it is working.  

Now it is my teeth.  I had to have a root canal done in January.  Once that was finished I needed a full examine done and three teeth are cracked and need crowns.  $5,000.  I told Garrett that his dad was going to trade me in but Gary said I was damaged goods and I cant be traded.  Also my toe is infected and I can't exercise to help with my weight.  I have been trying to do 10,000 steps a day.  I can do 5,000 easily but tat is not enough.  Now I have to wait for this infection to clear up. Which means I can not have any treats because I can not work off the calories.  UGH!

43 years.  Gary and I have been married 43 years.  The Bishop said me that we didn't look old enough to be married 43 years.  How sweet.  Krystal has often said we look so much younger than other people out age.  I guess we are doing something right.  Love my man,  He is the bestest part of my me. 

CANCER.  It has raised it ugly head in our family.  Marsha, breast cancer.  Kimberly, thyroid cancer, Sandi, breast cancer.  I had a scare of pre-cancerous cells in my cervix 4 years ago.  Grandmama, uterine cancer.  All is well now, except Grandmama passed away.  But that was her heart.  We have all seem to be able to dodge the bullet for now.

Pearl Girl.  Gary bought me a new car.  2022 Chevrolet Equinox AWD LT.  Yes it was a wonderful surprise.  It has all the latest safety features and it sits off the ground higher and has a hatch back.  The seats and steering wheel are heated at a touch of a button.  I can talk on my phone through the cars speakers,  there are cameras on the car that detect cars in my blind spot and warn me with a little flashing light and beep.  The cruise control keeps track of the car ahead of me and adjusts the speed so I don't can concentrate on driving and not the speed.  She is pearly white, hence the name.  I really enjoy driving this car.  At first I was angry.  I had a perfectly good car, Champagne.  2000 Oldsmobile  She was comfortable, ran well, not too small, had a bit of style, no payments and we got along so well.  I did not want to make a car payment.  Plus the insurance and tags are so much more.  I actually had anxiety driving the new car.  My heart would race.  I missed my Champagne.  But as time as gone on, Pearly Girl has been so wonderful.  Yes I hate the payments but I feel safer in her.  And its more comfortable to travel in even thought Champagne was good also.  Gary bought me personalized license plates for the car.  VDH  When we were first married, I noticed that there were cards with VD...at the front of the license number.  I would point it out to Gary when I saw them.. I would say, there will be a time when we will see VDH on a plate.  He never forgot that...so he put VDH on my Pearl Girl.  Such a sweetie

Until next time...Cleaning and Organizing, visits from the girls, Rain, my friend. Art at school, wiggles and sweet pea, decorating with white branches, Knit and crochete