REGRET (ri gret) to feel sorry about an event, one's acts, etc.
mourn, bewail, lament, cry over, rue, grieve, have compunctions about, feel conscience-stricken, concern, worry, self accusation, disappointment, dissatisfaction, uneasiness, discomfort, annoyance
cry over spilled milk--kick oneself--looking in the rear-view mirror--spiritual distrubance
Garrett asked me the other day to do something for him...stop being negative about everything. So I thought it over and decided he is right. I'm so negative because I am so bitter about my own actions.
This year the only thing I am going to change is the unhealthy way I beat up on myself. Regrets are and always have been on the forefront of my mind. I have decided that if I can just push them aside (really, I would rather squash them, send them through a high speed blender, than wash them down the drain) many of my so called "problems" will disappear. Wish me luck and if any of you can spare the time, pray for my success.
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I had this same realization too. I've been working on this since we've been in Alaska. My goal was to not complain or be negative at all in Alaska since being here is a fulfillment of a dream for Brad. I didn't want to ruin it or damper any part of it. So, I embarked on this same journey. I haven't been 100% successful, but I have certainly been successful. It does make a difference, but it is hard. I use prayer a lot, and I also us Brad. Brad rarely, if ever, feels regret or remorse. I've been trying to "see like Brad" and although I feel flippant and unfeeling for it, I don't feel horrible and negative quite so often. Sometimes if I start to struggle I approach him and ask how he sees it, and I am always astonished how he can see something so differently. Something that has caused me some serious grief can be so insignificant to Brad that I walk away amazed that I have spent so much heart on something so little in the big scheme. And just the act of getting my feelings verbalized and out of my heart does wonders, even if I feel incredibly vulnerable. So, my warning is that although this does work, it can carry with it an overall feeling of shallowness, or lack of feeling. Negativity is a huge feeling, without it, you have so much more space in your heart that it can feel empty in there, but that emptiness is something quite wonderful to get used to. Which is good, but hard in its own light. I guess I'm working on it all quite diligently. Anyhow, good idea, good luck, and I'll include you with my own private pleas for help!
Love you lots!
Good idea mom! Use this blog to help work through everything. I love you and think you are amazing!
The ward I was in recently had the theme, LET IT GO. And I just love that simplicty.
I think perhaps that might be a good theme for you this year too, Mom. Heck, write down your issues and put it in a balloon and take it outside and literally Let it go and I bet the simple act of watching it disappear physcially will help you see how we should be able to let it go in our hearts that way too. Just a suggestion, but I think over the past year I have learned AN AWFUL LOT about these things and I truly believe it is that simple it is just a matter of choice. I hope it helps. I'll pray for you too
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